On February 14, 2014, after 23 hours of labor and an emergency C-Section, I looked at this messy little baby girl and learned what unconditional love is.
Gone were the days of being alone. That’s not so bad, right? Well I liked being alone. Sure, hanging out with a fun bunch of people is great. But being able to just pick up and go out solo, or to sit at home and do absolutely nothing are luxuries that I thoroughly enjoyed and greatly miss.
She is at the age where she’s rebellious and feisty. She is passionate, impatient and adventurous. It is frustrating. I try to be patient, and I am most of the time. But sometimes I just want to hide in a corner and curl up into a ball. There are moments where I question myself. Am I doing this right? Am I a good mother?
(Get ready for the inevitable mushiness…)
Then she hugs me and says “you’re the best mommy in my life.” My fears and doubt are washed away.
She’s REALLY attached to me. I guess that comes with SAHM territory. But I cannot even think about life without her. I remember my pre-mommy days and I do miss it. But I just can’t imagine her not being around. I would be lost without my Sophs.
I would not change being a mother for anything in this entire world. If I fail at everything in my life, creating this beautiful child is something I’ll always be proud of.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommies.
Thank you, Sophie.